With Thanksgiving right around the corner, I’ve been spending a lot of time thinking about all of the moving parts in my life: family, friends, work, health, hobbies, social events, etc.
I came to a realization that I can talk the talk but not walk the walk.
What do I mean by this? I mean, quite frankly, that I lay in bed every night and “count my blessings.” Thank you for my family. Thank you for my dog that makes me happy everyday. Thank you for my sweet boyfriend. Thank you for my health. I go to bed feeling happy and grateful.
When I wake up in the morning, it’s as if all of those thoughts went straight out the window.
Of course, I’m always thankful for what I have. What I mean is this: I don’t actually follow through with a thankful attitude regardless of my mindset that I’m blessed. I’ll watch the news and clasp my hands over my mouth, horrified at what I see going on in the world (understatement). I’m so grateful to have my parents, my health, and a free country to live in. Just like the majority of people I know, I find it difficult to watch the news at all.
I get extremely worked up over the smallest things. I’m thankful for my sister, but I’ll get mad at her for not acting thankful for me in return. My friends are my favorite people in the world, but I find myself jealous from time to time over their small successes. I love my life, but for some reason, I’m always comparing it to other people’s life journeys.
After thinking about this issue (for way too long), I started to get extremely frustrated with myself. How can I be so grateful for my life and its little quirks, and still act in a behavior that is not reflective of genuinely being thankful? I’m twenty something years old, and I still haven’t mastered something that my parents have been trying to teach me for as long as I can remember.
Our natural tendencies are to think we deserve what we don’t have. The obsession with social media has driven us all to think we need more than what we have. I can honestly say that I’ve been swept up in this obsession as well. I see people that I’m not necessarily fond of happily posting pictures that make me green with envy. However, it shouldn’t make me think any less of what I have.
This Thanksgiving, I’m going to make a conscious effort to change my tune. It’s not always easy to push off our natural emotional tendencies; but this year, I’m thankful for even wanting to be genuinely thankful for my life and all of its small and beautiful flaws.
This Thanksgiving, will you truly give thanks for what you have?